Merry Christmas!

I wanna to do a long post. A lot to share. But I got no enough time.. ):

so now, I just wanna wish you all a simple Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart!!!!!

I truly would like to tell you all the real meaning of Christmas is Jesus Christ, Our Savior..
Let's celebrate and give thanks with a grateful heart.

Thank You Lord..
I am nothing without you.


to be continued...
SeeLing

天使的闪烁。

"拥有着疼痛的回忆，

                 但也拥有着永远的关系，

                                                这就是家人"

                                        -s.ling-    

 

时常都觉得自己很坚强，生病了才意识到自己是多么的懦弱..
生病期间，那种感觉正好可以让我无条件的哭，尽情地哭,有道理的哭。。
我清楚知道我从来就不是一个被受保护的女子，
但是每每生病来击打我的时候，
我真的总会特别软弱。。
在我的内心深处..
我在等待...
天使的出现..

我多么希望当我梦朦胧起身的时候..
有你正端着个热腾腾的凉茶给我..
我多么希望当我发烧到整晚都不退的时候...
你正把冷冷的毛巾放在我头上..
我多么希望当我哭着说很苦的时候..
你能笑着和我说，都会过去的...

其实我真的好想你...
虽然这一切的一切，
与我的距离就好像无边无际的海洋那么远..
我永远都无法触摸它，
但是我真的好想懂..
我有否你的心里面，
像流星般划过?
Mummy..
你还记得我吗？

我无法明白自己为何可以把以前的事情看得那么无所谓..
我竟然可以带着颗原谅的心来想念你..
为着你的健康与喜乐祷告..
虽然我知道你在生活中过的很好..
但是真正的喜乐不一定在...
如果有一天，
我们能坦然无惧地面对彼此的时候，
我只想和你说..
Mummy, 谢谢你!
谢谢你竟愿意在35岁冒险地生出我...
谢谢你把我生得如此地美丽与温柔，
可以让我以生命去见证与祝福别人...
谢谢你把我带到这个世界中并可以认识到最爱我的父上帝...

虽然你曾在我的身上留下了永不褪去的疤痕..
疼痛的回忆...
但这些回忆却在我的人生中扮演着非常重要的角色...
让我可以把以前的回忆，化成我以后将来对家庭的爱护..
因为没有人比我更清楚...
家庭让一个人的伤害可以有多大..
所以有一天...
当我成为妈妈的时候，
当我成为别人的妻子的时候..
我会尽我最大的爱来爱他们...
因为，
是你教导我的..
虽然我从未认同过天下的妈妈都是一样的这个道理，
但是我却相信..
你真的很爱你的孩子，哥哥.
你或许不是对我好的妈妈，
但是你却是对哥哥很好的妈妈..
我知道你很疼他，比你的生命更重要..
谢谢你， Mummy.
哥哥在外国求学的期间..
希望你也一样可以过得很好!
 平安，喜乐..

2011.

2010. with Gorgor.

cousin bro. 2012

p/s: Get well soon Seeling! Please pray for me.(:


Loves-Meimei,
S.Ling.

不必要的行李!

"当你还未准备好搭上飞机...
                 为什么要拖着行李?"
                           -s.ling-

这一篇要和大家介绍一本书《不再约会》，我用了两天的时间把它咀嚼完了，而且获得了丰富营养，所以我真的不能不说，不能不介绍^^

说真的...自从去了门训之后，我真的自然而然地培养出了爱阅读的渴望与习惯，又或者其实是想要乘着还没开始大学生活的期间,尽量让自己能获得更多额外的知识吧，毕竟我不想虚度光阴，要不然以后开始大学了，又要工作一定会很忙，光想就知道没时间了！所以，如果你有什么好书，请不要吝啬快快与我分享咯^^

当姐姐在mighty man营会买这本书的时候，我第一个反应就是说'很贵哦!' 但是现在我却想说，是值得的!注意了，或许不是每一个人都能同意里面的观点，
但对我而言，都是能接受的。虽然说，它的书名为《不再约会》但其真正内容并没有不断地强调为什么要避免约会，而是让我们更清楚地了解到‘约会’跟神对我们人生全盘的计划有何关系，以及如何丢弃这世界的约会方式。
作者在书中说道，会受到这本书‘吸引’的会有几个原因，以下为作者所列出的四个。

1）你刚结束一段糟糕的交往关系，不想再受到伤害了。不再约会这码子事，听起来还不错的。
2)你太不喜欢约会这档事，正在寻找替代方案。
3）你正处于一段方向错误的约会关系中，正在寻找方法，希望这段关系维持在神所允许的范围之内。
4）你目前的约会关系非常好，很好奇怎么会有人选择不要约会。

其实我以前曾经看过这本书，那是英文版本的，当时因为处在热恋当中，所以我真的没有多加理会地略略看过，就交还给人了（极度后悔）  。
我想说的是，今天会吸引我的其实跟第1有点贴切，但又可以说是不完全，呵呵。。怎么说呢，在这之前，其实已经为自己定了个目标，就是2字头过后才可以卷入这旋涡，但是仔细想想 ，这好像没什么理据似的，好像只是和自己的一个游戏。
所以，吸引我这本书的理由，完全不是为了不想再受到伤害而逃避，而是我需要更多的理由好让我知道在这等待过程中，我..我可以做些什么呢？

这本书说到，在我们还未准备可以委身于一个承诺，一段婚姻的时候，是没有必要约会的， 简单来说，就是我们应该等到了在真正可以委身于婚姻时才约会，而不是约会着然后再等到你可以委身于婚姻。‘如果你根本还不能结婚，又何必约会？’
更清楚让我了解到的就是神要我们全心全意地寻求他；放弃约会只是顺服神的一种副产品。除非我们把一切献给神，否则我们不可能经验到神最好的安排。我们一直愚昧不堪地捉住世界的生活方式，以为它可以带来满足，但神却要我们把一切交给他。

原谅我无法一一道出里边很多很多精彩的内容，但是你们每个都欢迎可以向我借哦! 里边还有说到，约会的致命习惯，人生伴侣最重要的人格特质和态度，纯友谊等等等等。。
HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!!!

最后，我还想和大家分享里面的一段诗，是特别为男人而写的，名为《一为女性的疑问》
希望看了的男人可以想想如何像个男人，一正确的方式对待女性。
希望女性们，能够提醒自己，要持守自己的标准。在考虑婚姻时，不要降低你的标准，任何一个叫你降低标准的男人，都不值得你把时间花在他身上。

一首美丽的诗，是否也能引起你的共鸣呢？

一位女性的疑问——Lena.Lathrop

你可知道你所求的，
是受造之物中最为昂贵的？
你要的是一个女子的心，
她的生命和珍贵的爱。

你可知道你像小孩要求玩具，
索讨着一样无价之宝？
你莽莽撞撞所求的，
却是别人愿以生命换取的。

你列出我应尽的责任，
以男人的态度质询我。
现在你要站在我女性的灵魂门外，
直到我向你询问。

你总希望羊肉热腾腾，
衣衫、袜子不破洞。
我却希望你的心像神所造的星一样真挚，
你的灵魂像天国一样纯净。

你要的是一个好厨师，帮你烧羊烤牛，
我要的却不只如此。
你要的是一个裁缝女工，为你缝衣补袜，
我要的却是一个男人，一个君王。

这个君王统治的美丽国度叫做“家”，
当造物主看到这个男人时，
会如他初造你时一样称道：
“这一切甚好。”

我现在虽然年轻漂亮，
但玫瑰般肤色会从这脸颊渐渐褪去。
当叶子纷纷掉落时，
你是否仍旧爱我，如五月花开时分？

你的心是否如大海般热烈、真诚？
让我能够投入你的浪潮？
深情女子在成为新妇时便可知，
她将进入天堂或地狱。

我所求即伟大及真实之一切，
是男人所能成为的一切。
我情愿以生命为赌注成全你所愿。

若你恕难从命，
就用小钱雇个洗衣妇及厨娘。
但女子的心与生命，
可没那么容易赢取。
    　  
这只是书的小小一部分，当你亲自阅读本书的时候，你会发现的更多更多，上帝自有他的美意… 

你不会后悔一看的书！

以感恩以及乐意的心，与我所爱的你们共勉之～:D

Gracefully,
S.ling

Mighty Man Return Camp

Hi everyone, sorry for not updating lately.
Sometimes I just don't really know how to express my feelings, I rather hide it. Oh well, I know it's not a good deal, because I always failed to hide my tears.
I composing the post with a heart of emotion, I am sorry but I just don't feel happy in my heart.
Maybe I am seriously sucks in saying Goodbye, a real Goodbye.
okay, I am not gonna talk more about my emotional feelings cause it aint nice to read.
and also, negative thoughts never sets anything right.

Yesterday, just came back from Kuantan, Bukit Gambang.
Tired in every single way, it's first time I went for such a long camp,
5 days 4 nights,
except the 3 months disciple camp.
Honestly, I think this camp is really fun, but maybe I expect more hehe?
Maybe because of everyone were telling me something like you won't regret etc.. HAHA
so I expecting it will turn out like super super fun. :P 
but it's doesn't mean not fun ok! And we actually got the first prize in the game section!!hehe.^_^
But just that I think this camp is more suitable for new friends, so I will definitely invite my friend to join next time. (which mean 5 years later, so loooooongggg) HAHA.
But overall, it's a very good experience and of course I did learn something new.
No Sacrifice, No Victory.
I really love this words..
It's because I really sacrifice a lot to make myself to this camp.
5days unpaid leave,
and also have to bear the unhappy look from my manager.
But I never regret, this will always be my priority.
Thank God for everything..
I am truly truly thankful..
I love you, My Lord. My Savior. My Everything.

p/s, all pic is on fb, lazy to post here. :P
 
Loves & Hugs,
S.Ling

501th Days

Can't believe it's already such a long time since the hard thing happened, but I am glad that I am getting better and better by day by day! ^_^ Big claps for myself woohoo~~

Signing off,
S.Ling

Lovely Days

“如果说...

        　你的爱完美得像高处一样望下的美妙风景...
　　　　　　　　　　那么我就是位

    　　　　　　　　　　　　   惧高症的女孩..”
 　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　-S.Ling-

今天一直有很强烈的感觉很想在这里写写什么..
所以我就不抹煞自己的感觉咯...
哈哈..

19.11.2012
星期一对于每个工作者而言..
都是格外忙碌的吧..
当然我也不列外...
今天很累...也很忙...
带着心不甘情不愿的心情上班..
很努力地为自己挤上一丝笑容...
虽说得好像很惨这样...
但是其实也有快乐的时候啦..

今天在回家途中..
我看到一个眼睛看不见的妇人在轻快铁的楼梯旁站着..
我不由自主地经过了她..
然后我忽然停下脚步..
想想...她或许需要帮助...
所以我就掉头回去...
我犹豫了以下
最后还是决定踏出一步,
我问她..Hi..Do you need any help?
她就很开心地和我说不是..
原来她是在等人的，虽然我没帮得上忙...
但至少我问心无愧..
虽然她看不见，但我只想让她知道...
这个世界还有光明的存在...
属于上帝的光明^_^

15.11.2012 
这天是公共假期...
没有工作的我早就预约了好朋友外出..xpxp
满满笑声的一天！
我们相约在Pavilion..
属于我们两个的一天^_^

2.5hours lunch!! :D

我们选了Ben's吃我们的午餐...
因为听说那里的意大利面超赞的..
食物虽然有点贵...
但是这是迟来的生日大餐...
而且也是久久才一次，所以就还好啦 :D
那里的东西真的很好吃..
我其实不是说很爱意大利面，
但都觉得超赞!
ChiChi的最爱..
她也觉得好好吃...
但是因为太大份了，所以我们都吃不完>.<"

我点的 Carbonara. 好吃!

Yan 点了这个什么Cheesee.. 超级Cheesy~

开动了！

我好想吃了~~

丰富的Belated birthday lunch!^_^

我们聊了很多..
关于感情的..
家庭的...
未来的...
人啊~就是那么多难过的事情..
我们一起GAMBATE吧^_^

过后我们就到处逛逛，
我们两个竟然走到了８点...
试了几件衣服，却没有真的很喜欢...
你们觉得怎样？hehe~

＃１

＃２

从Pav到Fahrenhiet再去Lot10 ..
原来这就是女人的威力啊～～
累跨了～～

Chatime. not our Fav, just wanted take a rest.^_^

好久没有那样逛街了...
好久没和一个人诚实地聊聊自己内心的感触..
可以拥有一样信仰的好朋友...
可以拥有一位心地超好的好朋友...
我深深地感恩..
我们要一起加油!!!^_^

Playing with Sis's new phone. :P

16.11.2012 
上个星期团契的节目是阅读分享会....
真的获益不浅...
之后就是学荣姐姐的欢送会..
有种莫名奇妙的舍不得感呢...>.<
愿上帝祝福你的脚步～^_^
我们会想念你的!!!

我要表达的是～我们要成为世上的光啦!^_^

^_^V

喜乐团契谢谢你^_^

一个星期又这样充实且平安地过去了，
感受到上帝真的真的很爱我...
太多关心的人围绕着我...
好幸福哦～～～

Thanks For Reading!^_^

Jesus Loves You!!!

Super exciting for Christmas :D,
S.Ling

Truly Thankful!

Thinking back everything that happened this week,
I am really thankful instead of worrying,
I'm glad that a lot of things had finally settled down,
This week was a totally busy week for me,
finding song for Sunday school's kids, thinking of bible story, retreat camp,
and preparation for best friend's birthday-ed..
and also the busyness of earning money.

 8.11.2012
Dear ChiChi's birthday celebration and a gathering with schoolmates.
It's a happy night chit-chatting and updating how's there all doing..
Seeing everyone has stepped out their foot to chase their own dreams,
make me even sadder.
I can't wait to see my dream become true, I can't wait.
But I know I have to accept a different life ,
I know I have to fight for myself,
I don't have any family support and financial support as well,
but it's ok I know I will work it out anyway,
with God's strength.
Talking back Chichi's birthday..
I'm really happy for her by seeing her has a lot of friends around  and love her..
celebrate with her etc.
of course I am the one of them..
hehe.
Dear, thank you so much for being my best friend,
you are such a sweetie pie that I've ever met, you never fail to make me smiles,
or maybe I like laughing so much? haha! :P
I will never forget our memories, and let's continue to serve our God and live for him.
May God bless you abundantly in everything you do,
guide you in every single way.. ^^
I love you. :P

2 important girls in my life.

You can't see they beauty if you don't know them. :P

Me and my pretty ChiChi. The kitty jelly cake made by Wen!!:D

Crazy secondary school mates! ALL THE BEST everyone!

 

 once again....

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY WONG CHI YAN!!!

10.11.2012 

Only You God praise and worship.

It's a great night with all 9church's qing nian ren,
and of course I am very enjoy in it,
just that I think it's better to have pinyin in the screen next time,
because like Carol, Ade and Kenneth they can't even understand Chinese words,
I felt for them haha!
Besides that, It's still a great night after all.
never feel tired to worship our almighty God!!
BUT! Got one guy is freaking damn funny omg,
he keep jumping during those fast song,
and how could he be so funny?? I can't even stop laughing!
He dance like boxing you know, is very funny..
I still laughing while typing out here!!
A bit like syok sendiri like that.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
Btw, Gabriel look extremely cute that night, love him so much le,
how I wish my future son as cute as him!
really sayang him a lot! ^^
No pic for the night, laugh too much..
just took one pic before heading out.

Did you guys spot me any different? HAHA. :P

11.11.2012
YAY. It's Sunday! My happiest day.
woke up quite late today, because slept very late yesterday..
was doing the pp for song lead and bible story for kids..
I'm not that kind of last min person..
but I am those ppl want thing to be perfectly good...
even 1 words or 1 pic.
I know it's a bit over and tiring for myself, but I am just me.
my personality.
I keep praying in the morning,
staying house alone so that can keep taking to God,
tell him every little single thing,
tell him what i worry..
and God is really Awesome!
He did listened!!
This is the first time leading my church's kids..
and in charge of many things..
so I really hope that I can do my best for them..
prove to someone that we qing nian ren can do smtg,
don't afraid to give us a try!
Before heading to church, I went to buy some junk food for kids,
then taking bus to church,
road so empty, no jam..
so graceful.
HEHE! ^^
Everything ran smooth just now,
they are so focus when I am telling story..
kids are under control and they love me even more now. HEHE!
They are way just tooooo cute, can't stop myself loving them..
But I hope myself won't pamper them too much,
must be garang sometimes!! :P
After Sunday school then go for class lo as usual..
then a meeting with Philia and Carol to discuss more about the retreat camp.
we are planning for a game section at night, woohoo, hope teacher would approve..^^
Everything seems running fine..
maybe I am the one who worrying too much,
or bear to much burden for myself,
must be a liitle smart next time.. ^^
But I'm thankful that I have a chance to serve God thru kids,
I was quite unhappy because I feel that everything also done by me,
but after thinking deeply,
I'm thankful, because you all just give me a perfect chance to show my love to God,
It's my pleasure to serve him, I'm not alone,
God's with me!! :D

Hmm, about my inner feelings,
I feel quite weird, I shall pull the break and stop myself moving forward,
I am trying very hard to find tons of reasons to make myself feel that I don't deserve you.
SIGH.. Complicated arh.. >.<
shall stop my post here, It's pretty long already.

For those who completely reading this post, Thank You! 
I know you care about me.
Jesus Love You! ^_^


Gracefully,
S.Ling

态度这回事

我从来就没有说过自己累，

但是我真的很不爽，为什么你们会有这样的态度?

一个态度，让很多人都很难受...

一个态度，让我知道你的责任感有多少...

整个儿童崇拜,从领唱，圣经故事到手工 ，powerpoint..

手工的材料，零食..等都是我一个人，

一手包办！

你们有上课，要考试，那我呢？

我不用工作的吗?我很肯定我工作时间一定比你们读书还要长..

还要每天加班，而且是没有钱那一种...

还要被人骂..

但我又可以怎样？

我真的觉得很孤独啊，像是自己一个人在打仗这样..

为什么我不能有你们那种爱理不理的态度？

为什么我要那么执著把一切都做的最好？

我多么希望自己可以像像你们啊..

我们是一个团队的，但是为什么都我一个人在做？

每次流着眼泪很委屈的时候..

我都会不断和自己说，

要忍耐！

但是我真的不想再忍了。

我真的忍得好累..

撇开你只给我一个星期去筹备不说，

但是你却好像理所当然一样..

为什么....

你真的觉得我很有空是吗？

你们能不能稍微明白我处境一下,一下就好!

算了，谢谢你们听我的发泄..
让我患上忧郁症的几率稍微减少一点点...
至少没有收藏在心里...
好啦~

我要继续去努力了，

我的劳苦，上帝都懂，

这或许就是我最后的安慰！

p/s: feel weird no fellowship in a Friday. >.<

Tiring,

S.Ling. 

J for JOY!

 Music- Casting Crowns - Praise you in this storm 

 Hello All! It's Friday again!
Wondering how's you all spending every Friday night huh? 
Some of my friends spend their time at Clubbing..
they says Friday should be a party night to release the whole week stress, which I not so agreed.
Well, everyone has their life and as long as you are happy with it , I think I've no right to say anything. hehe.
Some of my friends spend their Friday night at the office and some of them with their beloved family.
That's life, everyone has a different Goal. (:

And, how's about my Friday night?
I usually spending my every Friday night with my loves one------
JOY FELLOWSHIP!
Most of my colleague know I will surely back on time in every Friday, no matter how many works are not done yet, I still put my priority in my fellowship.
I still remember one day, It's a Friday.
My team leader requested me to stay back, to help out for the "Matta fair", I know that she knew the possibility is not high, but she is just trying.
And she questioned me.."Come on, it's just a gathering, what makes you so important?"
Guess how I answered? haha!
I just smiles, and said "You don't understand, it's not just a 'Gathering' sorry I really can't help."
Of course, at the last I still managed to fight for myself lah! YAY!^_^

Joy Fellowship definitely not just a gathering nor playing night..
We are all God's children, we gather to praise our God father..
to lift our hands for the strength in our life..
to be the light of the world..
and most importantly , We live for Christ!
We share, and we care each others..
learning to be like Jesus..
to spread the good news of Christ!
That's us.
Joy Fellowship can = to Joy Family also! HAHA.
Because we are all one family in Christ,  and it's Forever!

If you ever find yourself boring in every Friday night..
We are very welcome you to join us!!
No matter who you are, you are always welcome!!!

Here are some JF's photos!
Lets pic do the talking! ^^

KLCC Phodeo Hunt

We Love our country, Malaysia!

Our Valentines Card.

A card for JF from a bro. Aww, we will always remember you!

 

A crazy sides of JF!

supper after fellowship!

Our pretty Phebe's birthday!

We are nothing, but our God's EVERYTHING!

Our Lord is an Awesome God!

Pretty hard to choose which pic to upload, because we have too much good times spending around..
How you will join us one day! ^^

Ok wait, before ending this post...
Let me shout first!! HAHA~

'I LOVE JF!'

WE LOVE BECAUSE GOD FIRST LOVE US!!

 

In Christ we trust!
S.ling.(:

L.O.V.E

Wait for the right one(:

大家好啊，这是部落格的第二篇，选择用美丽的方块字来呈现。
(好啦，我毕竟还是一个热爱母语的女孩!):P
今天的情绪很忧闷...
所以我又打开了电脑，关上了灯....
让情绪随着敲打着键盘的一个字一个字地让自己好过一些些..
有时候...
真的觉得自己很糟糕，怎么可以让情绪牵着鼻子走的呢？
没办法...
天生一副感性的骨子在我身上环绕着...
总会想太多...
更容易让别人的情绪影响我...
我自问不是一个很懂得安慰人的女生...
但是有时你真的不得不这样做..
因为你知道她会很辛苦..
但其实我也知道，说太多也没用的..
毕竟感情这回事是需要自己走过来的...
感情啊...
真的是上帝创造的一个很大的奥秘..
是我们永远的功课...
而且也是没办法在书里找到一丝答案的...
非要你经历过不可...
方能体会...

所以呢...
亲爱的大家..
倘若你觉得你和某某一个人不会有将来的时候...
请不要让她跌倒...
请你远离她..
因为感情永远不再我们掌控之中...
我们无法预测接下来会发生什么样的事情..
感情很容易毁了一个人...
每个人都该把感情的美好..
感情的懵懂..
留给那个你认为最适合的人..
然后..
一起乘上你们的幸福摩天轮..
在爱中旋转..

最重要的..
我们不能放弃信念...
不能忘记上帝给予我们的美丽应许..
尽管有多么大的伤害..
无可否认..
爱情始终是美好的...
从前走过的路，
教会了我们如何自我提升...
如何爱一个人，
如何经营和维系一段感情...
以后的以后，
我们会更懂得爱别人...
也更懂得爱自己...

好了，原来那么晚了，真的该睡了..
还有..
谢谢那些在我最难过的时候陪着我的人..
在我最软弱时扶持着我的人..
我都走过来了...
谢谢你们的坚持~ ^_^
呵呵...
要放手了吗?:P

p/s: I'm enjoying blogging very much, hope I will be able updates more often. hehe.
Love yea!

Sweet Dreams，
S.Ling.

Candy's Life starts here

It's been quite a long time since I last blog, I kinda miss the feelings typing out my feelings thru the keyboard, I actually feeling better after letting my emotion out.. Okay, don't start thinking me as a very emotion girl ok. I still laugh a lot, and bring so much jokes and fun to all friends around me, not because I never been thru hard things, or I am a positive thinker, it's just simply because I have an awesome God in my life. Jesus. I am nothing without him.

Welcome to my blog and I'm inviting all of you to know more about me just if you are interested and care about me.. hehe. love yea!

Harlo~(:

God Bless,
S.Ling(: